For two years I have been praying for God to guide me; specifically for Him to guide me away from this place. It’s no secret that I do not enjoy living in Amarillo. Sure, I love my family and friends and I adore my church…but Amarillo? Not so much.
Last night at our women’s group (aka gathering for friends!), we talked about it a little. I told them how I have set a “Move-or-Die” date for myself: October 22, 2012. Of course, that’s sort of a weird name for a decision date, so they wanted to know what I mean. I explained that basically I have to move by then or suck it up and be content with living in Amarillo. My friend, Rebekah, told me that it seems like I’m running rather than going. She told me to stop striving, and to be content with my life where I am. She shared something God spoke to her regarding her own life; “I’m not going to move you until you’re content with where you are.” God holding out until you’re content? Really? I have to admit that hearing it hurt; my mind couldn’t make any sense of it, but my heart did.
Today, as I drove by 3607 SE 29th Ave, I heard God whisper again to me of my dream of buying a house. This particular house has been for sale for several months. Nearly every day my attention is drawn to it, and I love it and pray over it. Today I decided to look online to see how much it is. The answer is $70,400 – it is a three bedroom, two baths home; a little over 1400 square feet. Dark hardwood floors in the living area. It was built in 1937!!!! My heart beat fast. “Do you want more information?” YES! Yes, I do! I clicked the link, input my information and typed “How long has this home been on the market? Do you have more pictures, or a floor plan showing the sleeping areas?” I clicked submit. I exhale. It’s done.
I chat with a friend about it. Show it to her. Isn’t it gorgeous?! Other than the ugly yellow paint, I mean. 🙂 That’s okay, I can paint. She tells me that the best thing to do is to contact a mortgage lender and get prequalified. I sigh and say yes; I may have more questions for you. As I scroll back up the page, I see a link – “Get prequalified.” WHAT? Okay. Should I? It’s not legally binding, right? I do it. I fill out the short form and click submit. And now I’m waiting. Waiting to see what the future holds.
Should I stay or should I go now? I guess we’ll see. Guide me, Lord. I love You and even though I’m pushy sometimes, I truly want to only do Your will.
If you’re reading this, pray for me. I appreciate it.