I have been struggling with my faith. My beliefs have not changed. I believe that God is in control, that He rules the universe and yet still allows us to freely choose Him, but I have not been faithful the way He is.
I have reached out to my friends and they are overwhelming me with their willingness to pray for me. For hours tonight, I have prayed and worshiped and I am feeling improved. I feel hopeful once again. Hopeful that I can draw near to Him regardless of how things look right now. I choose to look with spiritual eyes. I choose to allow Him to work in me. HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN FIX THIS.
Father, hear my cries. Renew in me Your spirit.