Fred Phelps – Westboro Baptist church

Today the news that Fred Phelps, founder of Westboro Baptist church, is dying is trending on various forms of social media.  As well as several news sources, like this article from CBS.

I always thought I would breathe a sign of relief when he goes, but today when I was reading the news, I didn’t feel the slightest inkling of relief.  I felt…remorse and a type of anxiety.  You see, I’m constantly preaching love and yet toward this man I have not exercised love.  I haven’t prayed for him very often, and I’m worried.  I’m worried that he hasn’t truly known my God yet; the God who saves.  And that makes me a little sad because I’d like for everyone to make it to Heaven.  I know…there’s something wrong with  me, right?

People are calling for us, for society, to picket his funeral.  What good would that do? How is spreading hatred going to help us, him or anyone else?

If the world must picket, let us picket in love.   Let us picket in forgiveness.

As I was writing this, I came across the following article on Facebook, shared by a friend.  It’s good to know I’m not alone in what I’m suggesting.

A quote from this article says:

My final prayer is that people do show up to his funeral as a show of pageantry. I hope they show up with large, decorated signs and billboards. I hope they line the streets leading to the funeral home, and I hope that they make sure they are seen. Finally, I hope every one of those billboards and signs read, “We forgive you.”

That is my current prayer as well.

Thank You, God, for grace and forgiveness.  For me, and for everyone…even Fred Phelps.

 

Amen.

Art Journaling

Art journaling is so interesting to me.  It’s like you start with a blank canvas and instead of just painting, you build!   I’ve started to try my hand at it, but I have a long way to go. The hobby makes it seem like it will be very therapeutic if I ever get comfortable with it.

Here’s a photo of my first go of it.  It’s only two layers, watercolor and ink. I’m still not done. The rest of the page will be filled with words too.

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My mother in law took an Art Journaling class this past year. I’m sort of hoping she’s going to teach a class on it here so I can learn some of the techniques and stuff with my own hands.  As it is, I’ve spent several hours over the last few days watching YouTube videos.  hah.

Here’s hoping your new year is going well.  Bring it, 2014!

xoxox

Sara

PS. I’d really like to get my hands on one of these Dylusions Creative Journals.  They look awesome.

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Life, or something like it…

I haven’t posted a real update of my life in a long time.  So, here is me trying. 🙂

The number one change that I’ve gone through in the last six months or so is that I’m now a foster parent.  I think I started around August doing all of my training and everything.  I was finally licensed in October and had my first children placed with me on November 18.  I have a four year old boy and five year old girl that are siblings.  Parenting is more difficult than I thought it would be, but I think that is mostly because of the age of the kids.  By the ages that they are, kids are already set in their ways and it’s hard to teach them new routines/ways of doing things.  Even simple things like bath time are more difficult.  I do enjoy it most of the time.  Also….though people tell me I’m a really good mom, I do not see that in myself.  We’ll see how it goes.

I’ve been at my job now for over two years.  I’m not sure if I want to stay with it or not.  I’m sure I will for a while; I have no plans to change jobs. I’ve been taking some leadership courses, so I guess that means they think I’m doing a good job. Eventually I want to move out of Amarillo again, but I have no idea where I want to go at this point.

The kids and I were supposed to go to Disney World this coming Friday, but because my car is having some issues that need fixed – I’m pretty sure we’re not going to be able to.  That means I need to decide somewhere else to go.  People have suggested Six Flags, Colorado Springs, Albuquerque, and San Antonio.  I’m looking at all of them, but I’m just not sure yet.  I have to make a decision soon, though, so that I can get it approved through my agency.

I’ve dated a couple of guys off and on in the last year, but none of them really working out.  I do currently have a crush on someone.  However, it’s not reciprocated so I’m not worried about that.

Alexis, Krista and I are co-leaders of More‘s Singles Ministry – LOL: Laughing Out Loud Singles.  We have only a few people who attend, but I really think that God will increase that as we are faithful to Him. I think part of the reason we aren’t growing by leaps and bounds is because all three of us are rather….well, not talkative to people we don’t know.  I know that for me, I’m really observant the first few times I meet someone and not so talkative.  Which is okay, but it doesn’t draw people in.  Oh well; God will draw them. 🙂

I’m not sure what else to post, so I’m going to just leave it at this for now.

Be well and be blessed.

Love and Grace to you,

Sara

 

PS. Here’s a recent photo, just in case you were wondering. 😛

 

Sara in March 2011

oh how He loves us

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.

And we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If his grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way…

He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves.
Yeah, He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves us,
Oh how He loves

written by John Mark McMillian

New Tattoos

I got two new tattoos.

They’re on the inside of my wrists.

Matthew 22:37-40

Jesus said, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your passion and prayer and intelligence.’ This is the most important, the first on any list. But there is a second to set alongside it: ‘Love others as well as you love yourself.’ These two commands are pegs; everything in God’s Law and the Prophets hangs from them.”

That’s why. 🙂

The Call: Washington DC

As I type this, tens of thousands of Americans gather on The Mall in Washington DC. They gather to worship God and petition Him on behalf of the victims of abortion and to petition Him that He would bring revival to America. I join them in that petition.

What will it take for our nation to return to God? So many people claim to be Christians but refuse to be like Him. Refuse to take up a cross and follow. Lately, I’ve been one of them. I have no idea where my passion has gone, but I pray God that You would restore it to me a thousand fold. Me – a prisoner of HOPE!

You have heard my weeping, Lord. You alone know my heart and mind. Renew in me all that You would have me be! Make the fire in me burn through, O’ God. Abba, please. Please, I beg of You: return my purpose to me. Though I have forsaken You, You have never left me! What would You have of me, GOD!? What would You have me do? What is the Burn, God, that I can’t escape it? Everywhere, God EVERYWHERE I see Sean and the burning ones. I beg You, GOD. I BEG OF YOU. RETURN MY PURPOSE TO ME. I want to burn before You. EQUIP me, Lord! I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what to do! Is that what You’re waiting on me to say? IS THAT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY FOR YOU TO SHOW ME WHAT TO DO? I will do whatever YOU require. PLEASE, ABBA! Please. I will do whatever YOU require me to do!  Without You, I can do NOTHING. Without YOU, I AM NOTHING.  I have sinned, Abba, I HAVE SINNED without regard to what You love.  Please forgive me!  I give my heart to You – the piece of crap that it is!  I give ME to YOU. Please, God! Please. PLEASE. Please. I want nothing other than You, my God!  In Jesus’ name. Amen.