Drawing Near

I have been struggling with my faith. My beliefs have not changed.  I believe that God is in control, that He rules the universe and yet still allows us to freely choose Him, but I have not been faithful the way He is.

I have reached out to my friends and they are overwhelming me with their willingness to pray for me.   For hours tonight, I have prayed and worshiped and I am feeling improved. I feel hopeful once again.  Hopeful that I can draw near to Him regardless of how things look right now. I choose to look with spiritual eyes. I choose to allow Him to work in me.  HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN FIX THIS.

Father, hear my cries.  Renew in me Your spirit.

Why I Support John McCain

John McCain for President.

John McCain for President.

Taken directly from John McCain’s website, these are the reasons I support Mr. McCain for President of the United States:

Overturning Roe v. Wade

John McCain believes Roe v. Wade is a flawed decision that must be overturned, and as president he will nominate judges who understand that courts should not be in the business of legislating from the bench.

Constitutional balance would be restored by the reversal of Roe v. Wade, returning the abortion question to the individual states. The difficult issue of abortion should not be decided by judicial fiat.

However, the reversal of Roe v. Wade represents only one step in the long path toward ending abortion. Once the question is returned to the states, the fight for life will be one of courage and compassion – the courage of a pregnant mother to bring her child into the world and the compassion of civil society to meet her needs and those of her newborn baby. The pro-life movement has done tremendous work in building and reinforcing the infrastructure of civil society by strengthening faith-based, community, and neighborhood organizations that provide critical services to pregnant mothers in need. This work must continue and government must find new ways to empower and strengthen these armies of compassion. These important groups can help build the consensus necessary to end abortion at the state level. As John McCain has publicly noted, “At its core, abortion is a human tragedy. To effect meaningful change, we must engage the debate at a human level.

Promoting Adoption

In 1993, John McCain and his wife, Cindy, adopted a little girl from Mother Teresa’s orphanage in Bangladesh. She has been a blessing to the McCain family and helped make adoption advocacy a personal issue for the Senator.

The McCain family experience is not unique; millions of families have had their lives transformed by the adoption of a child. As president, motivated by his personal experience, John McCain will seek ways to promote adoption as a first option for women struggling with a crisis pregnancy. In the past, he cosponsored legislation to prohibit discrimination against families with adopted children, to provide adoption education, and to permit tax deductions for qualified adoption expenses, as well as to remove barriers to interracial and inter-ethnic adoptions.

Protecting Marriage

As president, John McCain would nominate judges who understand that the role of the Court is not to subvert the rights of the people by legislating from the bench. Critical to Constitutional balance is ensuring that, where state and local governments do act to preserve the traditional family, the Courts must not overstep their authority and thwart the Constitutional right of the people to decide this question.

The family represents the foundation of Western Civilization and civil society and John McCain believes the institution of marriage is a union between one man and one woman. It is only this definition that sufficiently recognizes the vital and unique role played by mothers and fathers in the raising of children, and the role of the family in shaping, stabilizing, and strengthening communities and our nation.

As with most issues vital to the preservation and health of civil society, the basic responsibility for preserving and strengthening the family should reside at the level of government closest to the people. In their wisdom, the Founding Fathers reserved for the States the authority and responsibility to protect and strengthen the vital institutions of our civil society. They did so to ensure that the voices of America’s families could not be ignored by an indifferent national government or suffocated through filibusters and clever legislative maneuvering in Congress.

Addressing the Moral Concerns of Advanced Technology

Stem cell research offers tremendous hope for those suffering from a variety of deadly diseases – hope for both cures and life-extending treatments. However, the compassion to relieve suffering and to cure deadly disease cannot erode moral and ethical principles.

For this reason, John McCain opposes the intentional creation of human embryos for research purposes. To that end, Senator McCain voted to ban the practice of “fetal farming,” making it a federal crime for researchers to use cells or fetal tissue from an embryo created for research purposes. Furthermore, he voted to ban attempts to use or obtain human cells gestated in animals. Finally, John McCain strongly opposes human cloning and voted to ban the practice, and any related experimentation, under federal law.

As president, John McCain will strongly support funding for promising research programs, including amniotic fluid and adult stem cell research and other types of scientific study that do not involve the use of human embryos.

Where federal funds are used for stem cell research, Senator McCain believes clear lines should be drawn that reflect a refusal to sacrifice moral values and ethical principles for the sake of scientific progress, and that any such research should be subject to strict federal guidelines.

Protecting Children from Internet Pornography

John McCain believes the Internet offers tremendous promise in terms of freedom of expression, information sharing, and the spread of knowledge and commerce. It represents the greatest innovation of the modern era in terms of the democratization of free speech and access to information. From human rights groups in China to bloggers here in the United States, the Internet has opened a global dialogue that has propelled the world into an exciting new century of connectivity and communication.

However, there is a darker side to the Internet. Along with the access and anonymity of the Internet have come those who would use it to peddle child pornography and other sexually explicit material and to prey upon children.

John McCain has been a leader in pushing legislation through Congress that requires all schools and libraries receiving federal subsidies for Internet connectivity to utilize technology to restrict access to sexually explicit material by children using such computers. While the first line of defense for children will always be strong and involved parents, when they send their child to school or drop their child off at the library, parents have the right to feel safe that someone is going to be looking out for their children.

Protecting Children from Online Predators

America’s most precious asset is its children. The innocence of childhood provides hope for the future and refreshes and restores the ideals of this great country. However, there are those who prey upon this innocence and the Internet offers these predators unprecedented, often anonymous, access to children. John McCain has taken a hard line against pedophiles that would use the Internet to prey upon children by proposing the first-of-its-kind national online registry for persons who have been convicted of sex crimes against children. Senator McCain’s legislation requires that sex offenders register all online accounts in a national database that can be used by law enforcement to investigate crimes against children. If these predators fail to register they would be sent to prison for ten years. The legislation also makes use of the Internet an “aggravating factor” in sex crimes against children, adding an additional ten years to any conviction. It is the responsibility of government to do all that can be done to protect children from predators who lurk on the Internet.

The Greatest Honor is to Serve the Cause of Human Dignity

There is no greater nobility than to sacrifice for a great cause and no cause greater than protection of human dignity. Decency, human compassion, self-sacrifice and the defense of innocent life are at the core of John McCain’s value system and will be the guiding principles of a McCain Presidency.

“To sacrifice for a cause greater than yourself, and to sacrifice your life to the eminence of that cause, is the noblest activity of all.”

John McCain is the son and grandson of military officers. He served as a Navy pilot, honored to live in the company of heroes as a prisoner of war in Vietnam, and is a beloved husband and father. Senator McCain has enjoyed the quiet blessings found in serving others.

I repeat: I will never vote for someone who is not PRO-LIFE. Mr. McCain is pro-life.

Jesus, I plead Your blood over my sins and the sins of my nation. God, end abortion and bring revival to America. Amen.

EDIT: Please note that I never said McCain is perfect. Just that these are the reasons why I support him. Thanks.  Also, if all you can do it leave rude comments – they won’t be approved. 😉

Prayer and more.

Jesus, I plead Your blood over my sins and the sins of my nation. God, end abortion and bring revival to America. Amen.

San Diego by night.

I’m beginning to make plans to go to San Diego, CA for theCall on November 1. I need to decide how to get there; plane or car. The drive could be a lot of fun, but a plane would be so much quicker. heh.

I’m praying that God will make provision for me to go to this solemn assembly.

I’ll try to write more about it later, with links and stuff to the places I’m considering.

The Call: Washington DC

As I type this, tens of thousands of Americans gather on The Mall in Washington DC. They gather to worship God and petition Him on behalf of the victims of abortion and to petition Him that He would bring revival to America. I join them in that petition.

What will it take for our nation to return to God? So many people claim to be Christians but refuse to be like Him. Refuse to take up a cross and follow. Lately, I’ve been one of them. I have no idea where my passion has gone, but I pray God that You would restore it to me a thousand fold. Me – a prisoner of HOPE!

You have heard my weeping, Lord. You alone know my heart and mind. Renew in me all that You would have me be! Make the fire in me burn through, O’ God. Abba, please. Please, I beg of You: return my purpose to me. Though I have forsaken You, You have never left me! What would You have of me, GOD!? What would You have me do? What is the Burn, God, that I can’t escape it? Everywhere, God EVERYWHERE I see Sean and the burning ones. I beg You, GOD. I BEG OF YOU. RETURN MY PURPOSE TO ME. I want to burn before You. EQUIP me, Lord! I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what to do! Is that what You’re waiting on me to say? IS THAT WHAT I HAVE TO SAY FOR YOU TO SHOW ME WHAT TO DO? I will do whatever YOU require. PLEASE, ABBA! Please. I will do whatever YOU require me to do!  Without You, I can do NOTHING. Without YOU, I AM NOTHING.  I have sinned, Abba, I HAVE SINNED without regard to what You love.  Please forgive me!  I give my heart to You – the piece of crap that it is!  I give ME to YOU. Please, God! Please. PLEASE. Please. I want nothing other than You, my God!  In Jesus’ name. Amen.

There are times

when I really hate what goes on in my life. Currently every one of my siblings and Zeppelin’s siblings (save 2) are expecting or they already have children. I hate that. Don’t get me wrong – I LOVE it for them! I love my nieces and nephews SO MUCH.  I just – well, I hate that it doesn’t seem to matter how much I want a child, or how good a parent I would be – I do not get the desire of my heart.

I feel like my husband is hiding something from me. I keep praying that he’ll want to open up to me, but… it has been to no avail. Sometimes I feel like just giving up, but I know that I can’t.

So, please pray for me. I don’t like being bummed.

Thanks.

Home from work…

I stayed home from work today. I have had an earache for two days now, and I have no idea why. I have cleaned my ear several times today by pouring in peroxide and letting it bubble. I don’t know if it’s an infection, or if I have injured it while using q-tips recently. Either way, I woke up with a headache to go along with the earache and itch in my throat. If you’re reading this today, I’d appreciate your prayers.

I’ve finally purchased my favorite movie Pride & Prejudice. It’s a fabulous movie, with a great plot. I can’t imagine a better tribute to Ms. Jane Austen. Part of me wishes to have lived in such a time as that. I think it’s mostly the romanticism of the time that draws me in. And the gowns… they’re lovely.

I want to go back to school. Why does it always seem so difficult? I have about $8000 in outstanding loans and don’t know when I’ll be able to begin repayment. I’m going to try this week to begin paying on them. It won’t be as much as they’ve requested as a monthly payment, but it will be something and it is my prayer that they will accept it – even if it is lower than they wish. Something is better than nothing, is it not?

I would like to get an associates degree in Graphic Design. I love art, and I think that if I had training I would be so much better at it.

I wish to immerse myself in God’s Word, but still struggle with it. Help me, O God.