Time Flies

It’s been more than one year since I’ve been here to talk to you…if any of you are still around.

I’ve been going to school, working, adopting a teenager, and generally trying to get my life in order.

Not long ago, I started doing something called Bible journaling in order to help me spend more time in the Word. Let’s get real….I’ve neglected His Word for far too long.

There’s a movement, and a brand, called Illustrated Faith.  You can find all sorts of Bible journaling under the hashtags #illustratedfaith and #biblejournaling. You should check it out.

Here are the pages I’ve done so far. I’ll try to be better about coming around. I hope you’re blessed.

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Go to http://www.illustratedfaith.com for more information and examples.

xoxo,

Sara

Negativity Fast – easy breezy…right? Oh, so wrong.

So, yesterday was the VERY FIRST DAY! of my negativity fast, and to be frank (who is Frank anyhow?) it was a pretty big bust.  Oh, I did okay with the “checking things off the list” part; read Bible passage (check!), daily declaration (check!), other declarations (check!), additional Bible passage from Bible reading plan (check!), but…negativity fast/positivity feast (brrrrrrrrrrrrmp).  I did try, but there was several times that AFTER I said something negative, I noticed it.  I don’t know how to guide my niece’s behavior without negative words.  This is what I know.  Throw onto the top of all that, that I didn’t feel well (another negative. ugh) and  it didn’t go well, at all.

Two days ago, she wrote me a letter telling me that I say stuff to her all the time that hurts her feelings, and makes her feel worthless. Worthless! I had no idea. All this time (since we took her in, in April) and I thought I was building her up, making her learn how to be successful, providing for her, but reality is here: I make her feel worthless.  She is not worthless; she is worth so much.  I thought that’s what I was showing her. I have failed.  A big, fat epic fail.

So, my prayers are desperate and open: God, please don’t let me make her feel how I’ve felt about myself all these years.  Help me. Please help me.

 

This parenting a teenager thing is hard.  Throw in that she’s already been wounded by women in her life, and it’s that much harder.

 

I wonder if this post is considered negative.  I hope not, because I’m truly seeking a solution for this one.

 

xoxoxoxox,

Sara

 

2013 is on the Horizon…

In 2012, I went through a lot of changes.  In January (1-2-12) I married the best man I have ever known, Dustin.  At the time, I had two foster children.  They returned to their family in February, and it was heartbreaking to me. I really did not expect to be quite so attached to them.  However, I’m glad they have been able to return to a normal family life and experience love from their biological families.  In April, my niece came to live with us.  She was having some trouble in school and what not, so Dustin (AMAZING MAN!) and I decided that we would give it a shot.  It has changed (for the better, I think) both of us.  Around June we found out that my brother had cancer, and he has been fighting it through chemotherapy since then and we now know that he is CANCER FREE!!! Throughout the year I lost friends, family members, and former classmates unexpectedly.    I also have really lapsed in going to church, and I had some faith issues that I had to work through.  I’m feeling much stronger in my relationship with the Father now.  In addition to (and sometimes in spite of) all that, I lost SIXTY pounds! That’s a whole child. hehe.  Just ten days ago, I survived the end of the world.  Life is good. 😉

I thought I’d put my plans for 2013 here in black and white…or whatever color it shows up. 😉  So, here they are…

  • Get back on track with exercise. I gotta face it, I haven’t worked out (really) in two months.  That is SO sad.  I want to lose another sixty-five pounds this year.  
  • I think I’ll try vegetarian again, or maybe veggie with fish.  I’m diggin’ it. I felt a lot better when I didn’t eat meat.
  • Read my Bible.  More often, and more of it.  I’d like to get through the whole New Testament, at the very least.
  • Pray more diligently for others and for myself.
  • Learn to either knit or crochet.
  • Finish Ashlynn, Brently, and Jace’s scrapbooks.  This is ridiculous since Ashy is four and I was supposed to do it right after her first birthday. LAME – O.
  • Move into our own house; like…we OWN the house.  Pretty excited about this prospect since we’re supposed to close in just around two weeks.
  • Take at least 24 credit hours of college courses toward my teaching degree.
  • Take a vacation with my honey, and maybe take The Girl along.
  • Try at least one new thing that Dustin suggests.
  • Be more kind.
  • Be more loving.
  • Be more genuine in thought and deed.
  • Put in more effort to be a great friend; reject mediocrity.
  • Actually WRITE to my friends/pen-pals.
  • Let go of more “stuff.”
  • Be myself.
  • Listen more and speak less.
  • Doodle, draw, paint – CREATE more!
  • Be a better parent to my niece.
  • Read at least 52 books.
  • Mark at least one thing off of my bucket list!
  • Make and participate in the “Good Things of 2013” jar I saw on Pinterest.
  • Try to learn to play golf.
  • Reduce, recycle, reuse as much as I can. Make a difference!
  • Buy more music!
  • Stop biting my nails.
  • Save up the money for a craft building at the new house.
  • Pay down some of the student loan debt.
  • Actually follow-through with all of these plans. 🙂

I think that’s it. What are your plans for 2013? It is the year of tremendous blessing.

Here’s lookin’ at you, kid.  Happy New Year!

xoxoxoxox

Sara

revelation through Revelation

During my lunch hour, I was trying to get caught up on reading Revelation (I’m behind!!!) and as I re-read about the 144,000 – fear welled up in me.  I asked Chad if he thought it was a literal number of the believers who will be given the mark of the Living God.  When he replied yes, I got chills.  How many people are in earth?  How many claim Christ?  I’m sure that the ratio would be staggering. Maybe I will look into that when I get home. I started thinking that “what if” I think I have a relationship with the Father but He doesn’t count it? What if I’m not good enough?  What if, what if, what if?

Anyhow, Chad refused to let me question that which I know deep down is true; God loves me and I belong to Him alone.

Thank you, Chadwick. I appreciate it.

Thank You, Father, for friends who serve You and for loving me through everything.

bucket list…things i want to do before i “kick the bucket”

On CF, some folks were talking about bucket lists.  I’ve been wanting to make one since I watched The Bucket List sometime last year.

I started mine. I guess I’ll come back and edit it as time goes by.

  1. Read the entire Bible; front to back.
  2. Learn to pray outloud.
  3. Learn Hebrew and Greek.
  4. Visit Israel.
  5. Attend a Broadway show.
  6. Go to an opera.
  7. Visit England.
  8. Go to a live theatre.
  9. Ride in a hot air balloon.
  10. Swim in the ocean.
  11. Touch a dolphin.
  12. Adopt a child.
  13. Photograph the Eiffel Tower.
  14. Visit the Louvre.
  15. Stand in the Jordan River.
  16. Dye my hair in a completely crazy pattern/color.
  17. Own a car outright.
  18. Lead at least one person to Christ.
  19. Read five classic novels.
  20. Visit Ireland.
  21. Visit Disneyland or Disneyworld.
  22. Go on a cruise.
  23. Live in a BIG city.
  24. Forgive those who have wronged me.
  25. Dance in the rain.
  26. Visit South Africa.
  27. Visit “Ground Zero” in New York.